The "Christian Wisywyg Film Festival" was a blast. It was a day-trip, 4am to 11pm, sadly necessary because of Terry's work schedule, our kid/money sitch, and the fact that I am doing three jobs at once right now. Otherwise I would have stayed at my dear friend Gretchen's house, which I really hope to do next time. I've never even seen her house, and she is one of my two oldest friends. She drove two hours into town and two hours back, for a screening of a ten minute movie. I love this woman!

At the festival, I went to two church services (yes, church at a film festival - surreal and wonderful!). At one of them, a minister said he thought there was someone who needed to come down for prayer for release of finances for a film. I went down to the front; my heart on fire.

The minister put his hand on my forehead, and began praying for the breaking off of confusion and discouragement related to the film. He also said he felt that God would say to me: "You haven't missed it, I am with you." (I began weeping copiously at this point.) He said that he saw two others that need to stand with me. They don't know it yet, but God knows who they are.

Whew. Kind of exactly what I needed to hear. We need to raise this budget, and soon. And I have been panicking at the enormity of the task, and my utter fear of not being up to it.

Then the screening was a complete joy. And as they applauded, they made me get up and take a bow after it, to more applause; a first in my experience. And many many folks said they loved it.

It was a very good day.

Now I am faced with the realities of current life: in serious preproduction for a short film I a shooting in a week in Seattle, while simultaneously working to raise the money for my feature. "To-Do lists" a mile long each day, and fewer hours to to them in because of my chronic fatigue and kid duties. When you get up at noon, and have to drive the carpool at three, and have to entertain and feed very energetic boys until bedtime, and then get to work at ten, it's hard to get a normal days' work in!

God, please heal my body so that I can do this, please . . . please provide funds for an assistant so that I can do all the work I need to . . . the sea is very big and my boat feels very small . . .